Thursday, July 27, 2006

signing off

this marks the last entry of this 'work in progress' blog as well as my last night in the office. it only seems fitting that as one chapter in life closes, i end it the same way it began. [see here]

tomorrow is my last day of work and it's easy to forget this entry is just a stepping stone as all the other have been and no more or less significant. just another step towards something i don't yet know. in 16 days, 16 hrs, 14 min, and 44 sec my journey begins towards india. i should probably be scared or anxious, nervous or fearful, but i am surprisingly calm...exhausted from this last week of work, but still at peace. it is a peace knowing i am doing exactly what i need to do and going where i've been called to go.
that is enough.

i apologize for not sharing more of this preparation process with you. i have been like an iceberg, 10% above the surface and 90% below. you've witnessed the 10, my journal and i the 90. ah well. know that the other 90 has been good.

i'm surrounded now by a bare desk and heavy boxes of books. there are a few construction document sets waiting to go home with me for i couldn't throw them away yet...they were some of my first. i know it will be like those projects in the first years of studio, saved for a time until i'm ready to laugh at them from a more experienced view. it's time to make my way to the car and home. india is calling tonight and i'll hear my team's voices for the first time. i don't want to be late.

i look forward to the stories He will soon tell.

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blessings to you.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

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Sunday, July 16, 2006

[ca] construction administration

after five years of architecture school, i really didn't know how buildings were built. sure, i knew where to draw flashing in a window system, but i didn't know what it physically looked like. i knew the definition of a epdm roof, but i had never seen one put together. how to think, how to analyze, how to design, was part I of my education and existed within the walls of seaton hall. part II i have found in the 'real world,' in the profession, on the job site.

as i think back now, i realize it was out there with all the newly poured concrete, metal studs, and half completed hvac systems that i fell in love with the art of building. as far back as i can remember, my dad has been taking me out to the 'job site.' sometimes we'd come down with mom to bring him lunch and he'd take us around on a special tour. i got to ride in cranes, was once stuck in a recently installed elevator and sat on the toilet of a multi-billionaire before he inhabited his space. i fulfilled my child-given urge to push buttons when dad tested the fire alarms and eric and i collected enough cans on saturday walk through to buy mom an electric pencil sharpener for mother's day. [i know what you're thinking...lucky lady!]

i'll never forget the day when it clicked. i was twelve and had spent the morning with my dad at work. trying to keep me occupied he handed me some left over home magazines as he finished up the end of his paper work. i don't know what it was, but it hit at something deep inside. i found the plan i was sure i would build for myself someday. i pulled out the graph paper and set to work on my design, sliding walls, extending rooms, and adding windows. it was complete, or at least as much as it could be. i decided then, i would grown up to be an architect.
ah...it was a great moment.

twelve years later, i'm still in love with this profession, though now in a deeper way and for other reasons. the art of creating, of making, of forming things into being is in my core...and i also in my genes. my favorite parts of my work days now are not spent with trash paper on the drawing board or putting a drawing set together on the computer. no, they are the ones out there with mud all over my feet and my hard hat messing up my hair. there is something so energizing in standing out there on the field, watching the steel going up and the noises and smells of 'construction' infiltrating the air. sure, i can make it work on paper, but the real fun is solving the problems out there in the thick of it, putting the drawings aside for the moment learning how buildings are really built.

my dad and i visited the job site together this weekend. this time though, instead of one of his buildings, we went to mine. we walked through the open framed building and examined the way the building was taking form. we talked about hvac systems and how to make construction documents more effective. we tried to figure out how the ridiculously expensive fish aquarium was placed in the wrong location and what i should do to fix it. we discussed the relationship of the architect with the contractor and how to work better as a team. his advice to me is more valuable than the lectures i attended. [not to mention i pay more attention] they formulated not by theories or concepts, but tangible, grayed-hair understanding. i'm enjoying part II.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

this one's for the girls

college really is a truly unique time of life. away from home, you step into your own, decide for yourself what is important and what direction you'll head in life. you don't know enough to realize you really don't know anything at all. some people may believe college is the best time of your life. they tend to live in the past, wishing they could live in those days with little responsibility and unappreciated freedom. i hope to never become this but to instead enjoy each season for what it brings and the smile that comes to my face as i recall memories. for the time being though, college just happens to be the time of life that i enjoy remembering the most.

'coffee talk' began freshman year of college on the ninth floor of ford hall. oh the stories we tell, continue to laugh about and how young we really were. dinners in the 'derb' and silliness far into the morning. there were road trips to colorado and weekends away in kansas city. nikki and leah's crazy plans and tailgating for football games. the laxitive brownies, late night walmart trips, and the marshmallow fluff fights...late night 'swimming' and outreach dinners. some have served overseas together and others are now in seminary with one another. we look back now and are amazed at the way life brought us together.

coffee talk girls
enjoying another night in our old bridesmaid's dresses from each other's wedding for a fancy dinner...how often do you get to wear these things again, really?!
me, heather, marisa, kristin, amy, marie, leah [baby addison]
missing nikki, amanda, mindy, anna, & merah

friendships developed that first year that have carried us through the past six. we've all graduated and moved on to new adventures. twice a year we gather together, sharing what the last year has held and where the next year will take us. our conversation is rarely shallow, and we easily pick up where we left last. there is a bond between us that is uniquely ours and founded in something deeper. we are friends, yes, but we are also sister's in Christ's body and that creates in us a unity unlike any other.

if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from His love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. [philippians 2.1-2]

Thursday, July 06, 2006

identity

a chicago friend,
now in greece,
and worth your time.

desire

the clear, logical development of a work of architecture depends on rational and objective criteria. when i permit subjective and unconsidered ideas to intervene in the objective course of the design process, i acknowledge the significance of personal feelings in my work.

when architects talk about their buildings, what they say is often at odds with the statements of the buildings themselves. this probably connected with the fact that they tend to talk a good deal about the rational, thought-out aspects of their work and less about the secret passion that inspires it.

the design process is based on a constant interplay of feeling and reason. the feelings, preferences, longings, and desires that emerge demand to be given a form must be controlled by critical powers of reasoning, but it is our feelings that tell us whether abstract considerations really ring true. to a large degree, designing is based on understanding and establishing systems of order. yet i believe that the essential substance of the architecture we seek proceeds from feeling and insight. precious moments of intuition result from patient work. with the sudden emergence of an inner image, a new line in a drawing, the whole design changes and is newly formulated within a fraction of a second. it is as if a powerful drug were suddenly taking effect. everything i knew before about the thing i am creating is flooded by a bright new light. i experience joy and passion, and something deep inside me seems to affirm: 'i want to build this house!'

[peter zumthor. thinking architecture. page 21]