beyond the walls of this world
it's a rainy night at java nation...i could not be enjoying it more.
a chai tea in my left hand and a black pen in my right. i watch the drops fall outside the windows and the cars splash as they hurry by.
purple, black and yellow umbrellas float across the framed glazing.
i like the yellow one the best.
there is peace. life is comfortable. it is easy.
i am fulfilled. i am at 'home.'
'home' has become a relative term. it is not the big front porch i dream of having someday or found in the city in which i grew up. it's not where my family gathers or even in the memories i have made. home is where my heart is. though currently, it is camping out here on earth, it resides beyond the walls of this world.
in just over three months from now,
i will leave for a new place, a new 'home.'
i go not because i am running from pain or searching for meaning.
i journey not to find significance or because of a calling.
i am not attempting to make my goods out weigh my bads,
build my resume or find happiness in service.
i leave because there is a burning in my heart that compels me forward. there is a zeal within me to show His compassion, to spread His truth, to make His name famous, to share His love. this life is temporary, it exists for only a moment. my body is but a shell and my existence but a breath. His name is eternal. i will give that which i cannot keep for that which i cannot lose.
"the greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it."
william james [harvard psychologist]
some call this missions, others call it service.
perhaps you term it purpose or maybe even calling.
whatever you name it, it's not a location, an action, or a reason.
it's a lifestyle.
i call it love.
love is why i go.
a love for all people, a love for all ways of life.
a love found in beauty and brokenness.
a love which goes beyond the highest star
and reaches to the deepest hell.
a love that knows no end, no boundaries, no limits.
this love celebrates diversity and uniqueness of cultures.
it doesn't wait until eternity, or until one is good enough.
though, such accepted love provides eternal blessings in the future,
it is offered regardless of how one responds and without conditions.
it has been here since the beginning. it is embodied in this moment.
it offers life to the full today.
His love is why i go.
a chai tea in my left hand and a black pen in my right. i watch the drops fall outside the windows and the cars splash as they hurry by.
purple, black and yellow umbrellas float across the framed glazing.
i like the yellow one the best.
there is peace. life is comfortable. it is easy.
i am fulfilled. i am at 'home.'
'home' has become a relative term. it is not the big front porch i dream of having someday or found in the city in which i grew up. it's not where my family gathers or even in the memories i have made. home is where my heart is. though currently, it is camping out here on earth, it resides beyond the walls of this world.
in just over three months from now,
i will leave for a new place, a new 'home.'
i go not because i am running from pain or searching for meaning.
i journey not to find significance or because of a calling.
i am not attempting to make my goods out weigh my bads,
build my resume or find happiness in service.
i leave because there is a burning in my heart that compels me forward. there is a zeal within me to show His compassion, to spread His truth, to make His name famous, to share His love. this life is temporary, it exists for only a moment. my body is but a shell and my existence but a breath. His name is eternal. i will give that which i cannot keep for that which i cannot lose.
"the greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it."
william james [harvard psychologist]
some call this missions, others call it service.
perhaps you term it purpose or maybe even calling.
whatever you name it, it's not a location, an action, or a reason.
it's a lifestyle.
i call it love.
love is why i go.
a love for all people, a love for all ways of life.
a love found in beauty and brokenness.
a love which goes beyond the highest star
and reaches to the deepest hell.
a love that knows no end, no boundaries, no limits.
this love celebrates diversity and uniqueness of cultures.
it doesn't wait until eternity, or until one is good enough.
though, such accepted love provides eternal blessings in the future,
it is offered regardless of how one responds and without conditions.
it has been here since the beginning. it is embodied in this moment.
it offers life to the full today.
His love is why i go.
posted by jill m at 8:09 PM
6 Comments:
When did you come to Chicago? You will have to give us a call next time you are in town.
:) the only reason to go
chicago? two weeks ago...i'm behind in my blogging! i was going to call you but knew my time there would be quick. besides, it doesn't take much for me to come up with another excuse to visit :)
hope all is well with you and your other half!
very comforting....
will you write a book some day? :) please!
why are you not a writer jill..i would so read a book that was written by you
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