ready to go, willing to stay

i can't sleep.
i can't read.
i can't work.
i can't eat.

tonight, all i can do is think about is india. what is it about this country that has stirred my heart? tuesday, my friends will go there for 12 days; i think i would give my left hand [as well as my right] to go with them. when the opportunity first came up, i dismissed the anxiousness in my heart because i didn't think it would be feasible with the honeymoon i thought i'd be taking. oh what i wouldn't give to go back and volunteer. a month ago, they invited me to come along; despite the short notice. i had a plane ticket reservation and approval, however, other logistics couldn't be worked out. it wasn't time yet.

"wait on Me," i heard Him say.
so here i sit.
here i wait.

caedmon's call, share the well, was playing in the background; i had to turn it off because it was antagonizing my excitement. "why india?" i think to myself. i don't know anyone from there, i have no experience working with hindu people; i have nothing to offer you. but something for you burns within me. i'm going to need flashing red lights to keep me from leaving in august for a fall internship. i have no obligations here; no car payments and soon no school loans to be paid. my possessions include a closet full of clothes, a desk, a lamp, a set of pink dishes;
all i can leave behind.

i'm ready to go, willing to stay.
until then, i'm on my knees for you.

hope this video gets your monday off to a good start. it did mine!
wet germans. the ladies at the end are the best!